It’s been a rough few weeks. I’ve had several significant setbacks. GPA is now apparently attacking my lungs, my prednisone dose is now up from 3mg to 40mg, and MTX is at maximum dosage. It seems I have no ability to handle stress because it sets my autoimmune system into overdrive. Since my autoimmune disease is attempting to reject my lungs, blood vessels, nerves, so I take immunosuppressants and other drugs. On the one hand, this leaves me vulnerable to infection and sepsis. A hyperactive autoimmune system can be fatal, so I need the immunosuppressants.
For those who wonder what GPA is like, imagine all your blood vessels inflamed (literally), and your organs starting to die. All-day, every day. On good days, it’s like having a very severe flu. On bad days, well, the 10 Scale for Pain doesn’t go nearly high enough. It’s been a great challenge and growth opportunity to learn how to tune out my pain a little more and to focus on life itself rather than the minutia of daily responsibilities.
Has God healed me?
* I am alive. Many of my disease buddies aren’t.
* Despite everything, I’ve had very little permanent organ damage.
* I’ve been able to become a much better man in the face of suffering. Life either makes you or breaks you, the choice is yours.
* The Lord has healed a few health problems that have cropped up. On the imaging one day and gone the next visit.
Why don’t people believe that God heals? The same reason, when Jesus (God The Son) was baptized, that believers heard God The Father say of Jesus, “This is my Son, in whom I am well pleased. Listen to Him!” At the same time, the Holy Spirit appeared as a dove. This is a pure Trinitarian formula, one of many, in Scripture.
What’s my point? The Christians heard The Father’s voice but the unbelievers heard nothing but thunder. If you don’t believe in Jesus, and you see a miracle, all you will hear is thunder. So, without faith, you can see nothing.
I get a kick out of folks who make fun of the concept of healings and miracles. They set up clever tests for God, and then they puff themselves up when God refuses to climb on the microscope slide or provide photographic proof. Good for them. We each get to choose what to believe. But, The Path of Christ is Eternal Life, while the path without Christ is destruction.
Will God heal me? I don’t care. The surpassing riches of His Grace, Beauty, and Love have filled my heart and soul with good things, foremost are my family and friends. Add to that the beauty of my life, both good and bad, to bring me to this point in my development as a Christian. I have no regrets. With God in the mix, none of my mistakes or victories will go to waste. All things work together to build the Christlike character of those who love Jesus.
Physical healing is irrelevant compared to the healing of my immortal soul.